I don't know what to do. I have been comfortable in my own body for a fair length of time. Apparently not today though, wonderful. Living as gender fluid isn't simple, especially if you live with your parents.
I can't make permanent changes to my body because the moment I switch over to female I will feel dysphoric again. It's fucking horrible. I could grow out my leg hair but I'll shave it all off when I'm female, then inevitably go back to male and feel wrong without it.
I could get my hair cut short, but I'll feel horrible when I'm female and wigs can suck sometimes.
I need more masculine clothes. I don't care if gender is a social construct, or whatever the social justice warriors are saying nowadays, I just want some clothes that make me feel fucking comfortable.
I hate that I can only bind for 8 hours.
8 hours? Who the fuck is only male for 8 hours? Not me that's for sure.
God damn, what do I do if I'm male all day? "Oh sorry, I've been up for 8 hours now. Better put a bra on!"
I hate this. This fucking gender is shit.
Please please please can I just settle on one? Please?
No? Fine. Fuck you too.
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